I’m a little depressed at the moment because winter has been so freaking dark and gloomy, and the wind is non-stop. There is nothing I hate more than wind that blows you down the street, ruins your hair and makes it difficult to do anything.

My car broke down on the side of the highway half way to Geelong on Friday night at 10pm. RACV was going to take 90 minutes to get there, and in the meantime Mum was on her way to pick me up. I cancelled RACV and just waited for Mum. Reece was at a gig so I couldn’t call him to come help. I haven’t seen Reece properly even though we’ve had quiet weekends because we’ve had friends over. We haven’t had time to ourselves in over 2 months.

I have a never-ending credit card debt that just won’t go away. I have my old bank sending me letters every 2 days because the account I closed had money drawn out of it somehow yet they don’t provide payment details for me to pay the money back which means I have to physically go into the bank. I have superannuation held in about 5 different accounts and I just can’t be bothered trying to amalgamate them because of all the paperwork. I’m pretty sure I haven’t cleaned the bathroom or toilet for at least 3 months. I clean my desk and it becomes a mess within 2 seconds. I need to save money to buy a new car, but I need to pay off my credit card so it’s a lose-lose situation. I got out of one mobile phone contract to go on another one but the cancellation fee I agreed to hasn’t been honoured - I now have to pay double, so I need to go back to the shop to contest it but I just can’t be bothered. I applied to be on game shows Hot Seat and Deal or No Deal. I bought a Tattslotto ticket. None of which are likely to help me with my endeavours because who knows…they will likely be failures too.

I just want to hide from the world.

So knowing all that, here is my ‘currently’ post. Excited? ha.

Reading: Nothing. I started about 5 books but haven’t managed to finish any of them. I’ve been doing a lot of Google Reader reading on the train and at home.

Watching: Again, nothing. It’s quiet time in the U.S. for all my favourite TV shows so I haven’t been watching anything religiously. The Shire sucks, all the reality shows suck and I’m sick of having to hear a sob story every time somebody sings or dances. I need to download quite a few shows that I’ve been told are awesome but just haven’t gotten around to it.

Thinking about: my life and how I feel like it’s at a stand still right now. I’m 25 and I think I’m having a quarter life crisis for reals! I don’t want to be in the same job forever, I want to open my own shop, I want to do new things, I want to get married, I want to have kids, I want to fix up the house, I want to get rid of all my debt and start to live my life without having to worry about it.

Anticipating: Summer. Holidays. Having my life back again. Not being stuck in the house cleaning every weekend. Getting back into running properly and being able to go outside without getting rained on, shivering like I’m epileptic or being blown down the street.

Listening to: A lot of Mutemath and more recently The Police.

Eating: Trying to eat better. I’ve just finished off the packets of chocolate cooking buttons at home so maybe now I won’t want to eat so much crap. All the popcorn is gone too! I’ve started eating breakfast which is helping me stop snacking on crap at work. Poached eggs on toast is my favourite but if there’s a little less time in the mornings porridge on the stove is good too.

Drinking: Lots of water. I just bought myself a Camelbak 1L bottle so I’ve been drinking a lot more water than I used to. Also going to the toilet a lot more than I used to!

Working on: posting here more often. being happy.